Happiness on a shoe-string budget....

Born for a purpose...is this what life is about

And what is that purpose may I ask...

Why is that I have to live all my life looking for this happiness

When in the first place I hadn’t met before & definitely will be able to recognize it.

At a tender age everyone is pleasing you

Making you laugh, showing you the happy picture of life

& than when you’re all grown up it dawns to you that

What an illusion you have been living there is no happiness anywhere

They say it exist in your heart, in your mind

But please tell me where...all I feel is my heart

Empty but with thoughts of losing the only people

Whom I love & posses.....

So where is this happiness?

The only time I remember being happy was

When riding my bike on a pot ridden roads

Trying to save myself from dying a horrid death

And reached home safely.....

That is the only time I have been satisfied & happy with myself.

Happy...Happy did I say, now that is so damn confusing

Being happy & happiness is there a difference....hmmm

I guess here let me see whether I reach any conclusions with this

Sometimes exploring a relationship with a partner, with your children,

Your parents can create a warm feeling from with in...

But does this feelings result in happiness...I wonder

Sometimes people who love you the most hurt you the hardest

Why is that they choose YOU to hurt....

Have we not done enough or have we not given enough

To satisfy their ever ending desires, demands...

What is it, you are supposed to do that they stop so it will hurt no more...

Is just being myself mean nothing to my loved ones?

Or do have to be someone else to be a part of this charade

 And to win a trophy for playing the part called my life

Is it my life anymore?

This is like an unanswered life....

Waiting to be hung so it can die an agonising death.

My guess happiness is a word given to us by people

Who never had to search for it...they too found it in the dictionary

Like a million others did, looked at the meaning & attached a episode

Walla!!! Happiness found....

This search will forever be on a shoe-string budget as

We are easily fooled in believing the unbelievable...

Happiness would come on platter if you know

It’s available to each & every one of us only if we know

Where to look for in the first place

Deep down in our hearts we are starving souls

Looking for HAPPINESS which only exists on a SHOE-STRING BUDGET...